If yesterday were my first time playing poker ever....I'd Quit...

They say that your goal is to be completely un-emotional about the results and how important is not to be results oriented. It is not always that easy, and for me, some days, nearly impossible.

Yesterday, as well as the day before, were horrific days for me. I hardly ever feel like crawling up in a ball and crying from poker and that's what it has been. In yesterday's tournaments, I busted out with AA or to AA in all nine tournaments I played. In an ironic and extremely painful fashion, I bubbled both the 50/50 and the 40k guar on UB that way, plus many smaller tournaments. The amount of money invested and the amount of money not earned is a non issue-that is how poker is. It is the agonizing feeling of defeat from each and every hand. You get it in good as a 70% + favorite preflop or on the flop just to have the unluckiest turns and rivers brutally crush your mathematical & skillful edge.

If it were my first day ever playing poker, I would've quit and my life would be completely different =) Lose with aa or to aa 9x in nine separate tourneys in less than 8 hrs? It seemed rigged! Sigh. Just a bad run, which hopefully will end very soon.

In any case, I am revived for tonight, I will continue to play well and hopefully, not continue to get severely unlucky. Also, I tend to play more loose aggressive when I am running bad, so I will work on playing closer to the cuff.

On another topic, I want to share an intersting eye-opening experience from today. The last couple of weeks, between work, poker and planning my sister's bridal shower, I feel very stressed out and slightly edgy. Plus, I have been dealing with some personal/family issues that just add to my stress. I have been not as cheerful as I usually am.

In any case, I was in the supermarket this morning, waiting on the check out line. In front of me was a group of mentally challenged adults accompanied by their companions (obvioiusly on a grocery store field trip). One particular individual asked to buy something and was not allowed to, so he started screaming uncontrollably in a very loud and scary voice. I felt so bad for him and his situation in life. My eyes met with the guy in line behind me and he commented "makes you really appreciate your own life." At that moment, everything I had been dealing with for the last few weeks was put into perspective. Seeing first hand the daily life of a mentally challenged person made me really grateful for all I have and all of my potential. Because the truth is, no matter how bad things get, I still have my health, my family, Jon and my happiness. And I am truly thankful for that.

Hopefully I will win with AA tonight and I can be thankful for that too! =)

Good money and peace,

Lucky C and Ace.