I have Returned...and a crazy non-poker experience

Hi all. Sorry for not posting for a month and a half. So, since August, I have been kind of down on multi tables. I had a long streak of not cashing live (like 10) and online has been such a grind and every tournament has felt like a bubble. Jon, on the other hand, has done amazingly. He has had 3 five figure cashes in the last two months. I am so super proud of him. He is playing so super well and his game is A+++++. In September, I played maybe 15-20 multi tables all month (I usually average 60-80 a month). Instead, I focused on 45 man sngs. I <3>

Sunday, I finally finally had a 5 figure cash myself! I final tabled the 200k on UB, came in 3rd and it felt awesome. It renewed my spirit to grind and keep playing. Poker funks are not fun. I wasn't depressed or sad about poker, I was just very apathetic. I simply did not care and was not excited to play online. Instead, the energy I normally put it into poker, I used to focus on my business and to grow it.

My partner, Cesar and I have developed a website http://www.repulaw.com/, and we are spending a lot of time advertising. Our goal is to build a stable per diem business and eventually gain clients and start our own firm. We specialize in insurance defense, but we are also looking to expand into healthcare and business law. I feel lots of good things happening in the future.

Foxwoods is next week so I am really looking forward to playing some events, and then Jon and I are off to California Halloween weekend for a Phish festival. Jon loves Phish and his family and I chipped in for his birthday to get him the trip. It will be a great experience, I think. We are having a hard time deciding what to dress up as, any suggestions?

Non poker experience. So, just for a bit of background- I have a strong faith in God and I believe we have spiritual connections, and there are people in this world with special psychic abilitites and individuals who can communicate with the dead to some extent. I am not a freak and I do not conduct seances or dance around a cauldron, lol. I am a realist in many ways, but like to think I am not ignorant to the fact that there is more than just "us" to this world. That being said, I have never had a "ghostly/spiritual experience" before three weeks ago. It really shook me up.

I was sleeping on a Wednesday night (I think the second week in September) and was suddenly awakened. Not a groggy wake up feeling, I woke up as if it was the middle of the day- my eyes snapped open and i was very alert. There was no chance I was dreaming. I looked over at my alarm clock and it said 5:20a.m.

I turned over to go back to sleep, and all of a sudden, the "pins and needles" feeling that you get when a limb is asleep, spread throughout my entire body. I couldn't move but I don't know if I couldn't move because I was scared or because I was physically unable to move. I do not know how long that feeling lasted. While I was experiencing the pins and needles, and wondering what the hell was going on, I heard a white noise in my ear, like a whisper. it didnt say anything. it was just white noise, like from when a TV channel is snowy. shwishshwooshshowwhwhwsoohh. And then, out of nowhere, a phrase popped into my head "0 waiting, zero waiting" like a banner running through my mind. And then...it was over. The pins and needles feeling slowly exited my body. It did not just disappear, but left my head and shoulders and arms and exited through my feet. The noise stopped. And then it was quiet.

I started crying. I looked over at the alarm clock. It said 5:26 a.m. I then noticed a feeling inside of me. Inside my stomach and esophogus, there was a really warm warm sensation. It felt good. It was not a burning, but almost like I had a warm fire inside of me that was giving me a high. I woke Jon up. I was upset. But I don't know why. Perhaps because I was scared of the unknown. He stayed up with me until daylight.

Since then, I have had no other experiences, except now I wake up every single night for 10 or 15 minutes. One time, I dreamt about the pins and needles and that my cousin Nicole who passed away five years ago, and my aunt Maria, who passed 4 years ago, were visiting me during the pins and needles. In my dream, I was floating and embracing the experience. Jon was on the bed below me watching in awe and I was screaming "I embrace you, I embrace you." Then suddenly I was awake, wide awake. And my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. My heart never beat so hard before in my life. That was the only other thing that has happened since my first experience.

Going through this has prompted me to call Sabina, a medium I went to 5 years ago who was absolutely amazing- she was spot on with her statements. Very very good. I have been to her three times in my life. Only once out of the three times, I was not impressed. I cannot wait until my appointment with her, I will let you know what she says.

That's it, hopefully I will find peace at night- I would give anything to sleep undisturbed throughout the night. Even though it happened a month ago, only once have I slept through the night.

I will post more soon- no more 1 month breaks, I will try really hard to post regularly, like I used to!

Good money and peace,
Garnet.